Better Things to come...

Today is packing day.  Riding Helmets for horseback riding, Ensure milkshakes for my boys who are sure to be hungry and picky and soccer balls by the dozen as gifts for our new friends  ---We've prayed, planned, bought, researched and now its finally time.  I cannot believe it is actually here.  Very surreal and scary to me.  I am a creature of habit.  I adapt to change, but I don't crave it.  My husband on the other hand feels most alive during change.  God has used change to grow our marriage in mighty ways.  Good change, bad change, scary and exciting.  Wondering which will this be?
At first- planning our 2 month long summer vacation in South America, I was sure that this was an exciting change.  Relaxing and rejuvenating while just enough adventure to keep the boys from wilting.
Then I began to pray about the trip and Gods plan for our family, and although I am not sure I still even understand it, it began to unfold piece by piece for us.  As we laid down our vision and try and grasp his vision things began to fall into place.
..from Wycliff bible translator headquarters, I felt God move in my spirit in a definite direction that I had not felt since I knew I was to marry Will.  At first I chalked it up to the emotional side of being in such a holy place with such a huge God sized vision.  But then I can home and the urgency to train my family to go and tell God's stories while we were on vacation began so strong that it was exhausting.  Exhausting me and my family.  So I stopped everything.  I began praying Lord, let my will for this trip be yours, and he placed a peace in me that sustains me now.  I know that he has an ultimate purpose and plan and we are willing to bring  God's story to all who will listen in our little village in the Andes mountains. And if we fail and do nothing but exist, well that God has ordained as well.
I really am completely humbled that anyone would follow us on this adventure and very intimidated as my writings and feelings are always real although not always holy or pretty.  I am very much in need of Grace in my daily life in Fort Worth Texas, oh how I will need His grace every second of the day as I lead my boys into unexplored territory.....
That last line was for drama for the boys, they really do feel like they are Lewis and Clark embarking on a new world expedition.